Tuesday, January 20, 2015

Ain't no sunshine after the grey sky?

21 January 2015,
12.38 PM


The sky look gloomy since few days ago.
Just as gloomy as my heart. I hate pretending that I'm currently having a good day when actually, I am not. This is just the 21st day after New Year and I already felt so miserable. 

Like you know,
Too many people told me life is like a bicycle. In order to keep on moving, I have to keep on cycling. But, each person has different capabilities. And my strength and courage to continue facing every obstacles is not enough, I guess so. I am not strong enough to face things that ruining my day or even my life, especially when I have to go through it alone. 

On this 3rd week of January, I admit that I am such a loser.
I get angry over things I cannot handle.
I took the wrong opportunity. I get upset for things I cannot solve. 
Damn. 

I need time to recover and to get back my sanity. 
I lost interest in everything. Almost everything. I spend my day thinking on how to go on with life.
I used to love going to work and wait for the end of the month for my payslip.
But recently I am not in the mood of working. I hate the struggle of going to work. 

I hope this is just a temporary miserable situation.
Should I pray for salvation? 

*sighed*



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