Try Again next Time

There are a lot of times when you're facing disappointment,
half of your self telling you to give up. While half of it will ask you to go on and try again.

It is your choices, either to give up or to try again.

Once upon a time I used to be so weak...nahh kidding. I've never been so weak.
When I can't help myself, I always surrender to the Al-mighty and that made me stronger.

Just when the caterpillar think the world is over,
It became a Butterfly.

Dont give up.
Miracle happen.


Self-reminder,
Diana

The Hospital Window...

Two men, both seriously ill, occupied the same hospital room.

One man was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour each afternoon to help drain the fluid from his lungs. His bed was next to the room’s only window. The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back.

The men talked for hours on end. They spoke of their wives and families, their homes, their jobs, their involvement in the military service, where they had been on vacation...

Every afternoon, when the man in the bed by the window could sit up, he would pass the time by describing to his roommate all the things he could see outside the window.

The man in the other bed began to live for those one hour periods where his world would be broadened and enlivened by all the activity and color of the world outside.

The window overlooked a park with a lovely lake. Ducks and swans played on the water while children sailed their model boats. Young lovers walked arm in arm amidst flowers of every color and a fine view of the city skyline could be seen in the distance.

As the man by the window described all this in exquisite details, the man on the other side of the room would close his eyes and imagine this picturesque scene.

One warm afternoon, the man by the window described a parade passing by. Although the other man could not hear the band — he could see it in his mind’s eye as the gentleman by the window portrayed it with descriptive words.

Days, weeks and months passed.

One morning, the day nurse arrived to bring water for their baths only to find the lifeless body of the man by the window, who had died peacefully in his sleep. She was saddened and called the hospital attendants to take the body away.

As soon as it seemed appropriate, the other man asked if he could be moved next to the window. The nurse was happy to make the switch, and after making sure he was comfortable, she left him alone.

Slowly, painfully, he propped himself up on one elbow to take his first look at the real world outside. He strained to slowly turn to look out the window besides the bed.

It faced a blank wall.

The man asked the nurse what could have compelled his deceased roommate who had described such wonderful things outside this window.

The nurse responded that the man was blind and could not even see the wall.

She said, “Perhaps he just wanted to encourage you.”

Everything Happened for Reasons...

When I was a little bit younger than today, often time I found it was hard for me to understand why God allows some unexpected things to be happen in my life.

Yes I admit. I am not some kind of person who religiously going to church every Sunday.

But I trust in the existence of God. And that was enough for me to stay with my faith.

Few months back, I had read about the tales of two friends who went for vacation somewhere near the Fujiyama mountain. They are both living at their local friend's home who lives at the foot of the mountain. One fine day, the weather is so wonderful that their local friend wake them up early in the dawn to see the scenery of the beautiful mountain. The two friend were so amazed to see the strong, beautiful mountain in front of them. They took a lot of photos to show their excitement and appreciation of the beautiful scenery they see in front of their eyes.

"you only see not even half of the mountain my dear friends. The peak is still covered with those heavy dew. If you are able to see it sooner or later, I am sure you'll had multiple excitement than you have just by seeing a bit of Fuji," their local friend tell them.

My dear friend, this is exactly what happened in our life. We can only see what appear in front of our eyes or things that happened at present. Either it is good or bad thing. But God see the whole thing, even the things that we cannot foresee because it has not happen yet. :) :) That's why He let some things to be happen to us.

Often time, when good things happened, we forgot to be prepare for the worse in the next future because we cant foresee them. And when bad things happened, we often give up and blame God to let it happen to us because we cannot see what exactly awaiting us  next. 

But God doesn’t test us because He doesn’t know how strong we are.Instead, He tests us because we don’t know how strong we are — and we’ll only realize it when times of testing come. None of us likes to go through hard times (and God isn’t necessarily behind them, even if He does allow them). But God can use them to show us our weaknesses. And when that happens, we need to ask God to help our faith grow. Testing should make us spiritually stronger — and it will as we turn it over to God. The Bible says, “Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials … so that you may be mature and complete”


Pray and you shall be given. 

God bless,

Diana

L.O.V.E

If you really love someone, you care about him/her as much or more than yourself,never less.
People always said, love yourself before loving other. But this is sometimes not applicable to certain people, including myself. I am so amazed on how someone can love me so much when I don't even love myself.

If you really love someone, you will never asked what you get in return for loving your partner, "After all I have done, this is what I get from you?". Hmm.. Love is about sacrificing without even mentioning it. If you always wanted to be 'accepted', "appreciated" then your partner is just like those other people you want to impress, not to love,

Everyone has their own struggles in life. If you really love someone, instead of being over emotional, you may need to have empathy, which is putting yourself in your other's half shoes. What if your partner just having a not so good day and all s/he wish is to have good communications with you but you end up ruining it just because of simple misunderstanding?

If you really love someone, you will never cheat him/her. You'll gonna struggle to make things works, both of you,

Remember that, 
your partner may cannot love you the way you wish him/her to love you. S/he might be incapable to do it. But remember, the person that love you will always love you with everything that they  have, even when it is below your expectation.

Regards,
Diana

Bed Time Story

Once upon a time,

There was an island where all feelings lived: Happiness, Sadness, Vanity, Knowledge, Richness, and Love.

Theirs was a contented existence until one day to everyone’s dismay it was discovered that the island was sinking. Everyone was told they must leave. So the feelings all prepared their boats and started leaving their beloved island.

Love was the only one that stayed, behind. Love so cared for the island home that he wanted to stay until they were sure that the island was really sinking. 

When Love realized that the island was really sinking, he decided to ask for help.

Richness was passing by Love in a beautiful boat. Love said, “Richness, can you take me with you?” Richness answered,”No, I can’t. There are a lot of gold and silver in my boat. There is no room in here for you.”

Love decided to ask Vanity who was passing by, “ Vanity, please help me!” “ I can’t help you Love. You are all wet and will damage my boat,” Vanity answered.

Sadness was close by so Love asked for help, “Sadness, let me go with you.” “ Oh...Love, I am so sad that I can’t help anyone. I prefer to be alone!”

Happiness passed Love too. She was too happy to notice when Love called her!

Suddenly, there was a voice, “ Come Love, I will take you.” It was an elderly man.

Love became very happy that he even forgot to ask the name of the elder. When they arrived to safe grounds, Love asked Knowledge who was the elderly man.

“It was time.” “Time? But why did Time help me?”

“Because only Time is capable of understanding such a great Love.”

Remember that when things may look the bleakest, and when all appears abandon, Time is capable of solving anything.

Things may not have a solution today, but tomorrow you may find one!

Paranoid

It's been a while since the last time i write something in here.... too many things had changed, including myself...:D "i hope I changed for good. Hopefully.

Sometimes I hate myself for being a deep thinker. I get jealous with some people who lived the life they always wanted, Unlike me. I wanted to be free but I have an obligation in life.
I still remember a year ago, when I randomly made decisions to go far away from my current life at the moment, because I am too depressed with everything and everyone. But planning is easier than execution.

Sometimes I feel like my life is too random. I mean, it changing in a blink of eyes.
Once upon a time I used to think life is easy and future is not something I should be worry of. But then, as time passing by, things always happened not based on what I wish or want. People changed. Commitment changed. And then, life story changed.

I met many people who keep on making me changing my perception about life.
I agreed that people that came into our life are not coincidence. But God had sent them to us, either to give us a lesson or to learn from us. Some of them teaching me to be independent and full of courage because we can't predict what will happen in the future. And, some of them taught me to just live the life I want without worry because life is too short to be worry of. I am in between of both, Like, seriously,

As if only I am just living for myself, then I have nothing to scared of. But I am living for myself and for others. Being the 'pillars' daughter is one of my major task.

I had spent my younger age pleasing people around me including my family. As if only they knew I don't want to be 'me' today, I hate my job, I didn't enjoy my current life but for the sake of their happiness then I have to be strong for it., well., *sighed.
I always get paranoid that I can't stay strong for a longer time being like this. I always felt that I have reached my limitation of being too independent and pushing myself to do something I dislike to do. I am scared that in the near future, I will no longer can do something beneficial,hence will not be appreciated anymore,.

Dear God, You always knew how messed up I am even I'd tried my best to cover it up. Forgive me for being weak. I hope I can stay stronger for a little bit more.

I will be here

Tomorrow morning if you wake up
And the sun does not appear
I... I will be here
If in the dark we lose sight of love
Hold my hand and have no fear
'Cause I... I will be here

I will be here
When you feel like being quiet
When you need to speak your mind
I will listen
And I will be here
When the laughter turns to crying
Through the winning, losing and trying
We'll be together
'Cause I will be here

Tomorrow morning if you wake up
And the future is unclear
I... I will be here
As sure as seasons are made for change
Our lifetimes are made for years
So I... I will be here

I will be here
And you can cry on my shoulder
When the mirror tells us we're older
I will hold you
And I will be here
To watch you grow in beauty
And tell you all the things you are to me
I will be here, hmmm

I will be true to the promise I have made
To you and to the One who gave you to me

And just as sure as seasons are made for change
Our lifetimes are made for years
So I... I will be here
We'll be together
I will be here