The day I started to recall back and re-counting my blessings

Sometimes I think I have being so immature for thinking too much about other's opinion about me and get upset. :/

I'm getting upset over small things in which whenever I recall back about it, I felt regretted.

When I was still in my campus, my life was so limited that I cannot get everything that I want. I always wish that I will finished 4 years course faster because I  want to get job as soon as possible. I promised to myself that anything can be, as long as I can afford myself and helping my family a bit.

Then, in no time after I grad, God grant my wishes and I got job even before I was officially graduated. Because there's a god's word mentioned in the holy bible, "ask and thou shall be given". Ask and you will be given.

But what happened next, I started to complaint. I started to think that things happened not based on what I wanted. Then I started to feel down and giving up.

Fortunately, I am somekind of person who doesn't like to take action based on emotion except when I was sure that I can handle the consequences. I tried to calm down and recalled back everything that made me in this situation, at the first place.

So, whenever I started to give up, I tend to remind myself about what I already promised to myself before this.

By the end of the day, all I did is to calm down and start counting every blessings that I have.

God bless.

Regards,
Diana

Aim for the Moon, If you miss, you still land among the stars.

My room decoration ^_^

Last week, I've spent my time decorating my room wall with the glow in the dark stars and moon. I always get inspired with things I heard or saw in TV or books.

Because there's a phrase saying that we shall try to aim for the moon, if we fall, we will still fall among the stars. This taught us that, there is nothing wrong to dream big and to force yourself to aim for the best. If you cannot get it, at least you will still get the good one. Finger crossed. 

I am always trying to get the best for myself. But sometimes I wasn't lucky enough to achieve my dream. Nevermind then. I have reading a lot of motivational quotes and books. And every books told me to think positive and continue living, based on my own translation of the book. There's a lot of choices and opportunity out there. I just need to discover it without giving up until I get the right one. ^_^

How God save me from the wrong opportunity.

I got few job opportunities recently but I guess, I cannot be fit with any of them. How sad. But life goes on.
However, I was blessed as God had saved me from the wrong opportunity and wrong employer. I had been called by a guy from peninsular Malaysia, offering job for me, which actually made me feel a little bit excited because that was one of the career that I would like to try to. However, thing goes wrong when he "suddenly admitted" that he just wanted to use me and my body and willing to give money to me if I am willing to do it for him. Go find another bitch man.

Like seriously, I want job and I am offering good service for your company. I might need money but it doesn't meant, it will cost my dignity for it.

Forgive him God, for he didn't knew what he was doing. *I blocked him from my whatsapp because I don't want to keep in contact with people like that*

How God Gave me hint to continue move on and wait for the right chances

As I browse my facebook page while thinking about how's things gonna be in the end, suddenly I saw this, posted by my friend. :)

Maybe I just need to wait. Maybe things will happen when the perfect time has come. Not so soon. Not too late. Just on the perfect timing, it should happen.*keep in faith. God bless.

I knew everything had been written and destined.
But it doesn't mean I should stop trying.

Life goes on dear friends,
either we are ready or not. Just pray that everything will be fine eventually.

Regards,
Diana

Gifts of Hope

Recently I have been thinking too much of what going to be happen in the future. I am always afraid of obstacles. I am not somekind of pessimistic but I am tend to worry over problems that might be happen in the future.

I think, I inherit this 'over thinking' brain from my dad. He always worrying about things, about money and so on. And most of the time, it will be about money. I grew up as a woman who thought that money is the root of everything. Money can't buy happiness but without money, you'll gonna feel like dying. :/

My friend used to ask me about things I fear the most. And my answer was like, "Having no job. Not well-established and cannot afford myself and my family. I have a lot of bills to be paid. Now and forever." Sounds like bluffing but this is the truth. I have to pay my educational loan, my dad's car loan and soon might be having to pay my own house. My youngest twin brothers will further their study soon and I guess, they will also use a lot of money. Damn. I cannot imagine how struggle I will be, sooner. I am trying to convince myself that, God will make a way, when it seems to be no way.

Back to my prior intention to write this post.
I sometimes did a post mortem about myself and my stupid expenses every month. When I knew some people who make lesser income than me every month but still have the courage to work and to struggle, then I have no excuses for myself. I am unmarried, young but already made some good amount of money( for my level) but rarely being grateful of what I already have. I have to remind myself everyday to cherish every blessings, before it's gone.

After spending my whole day in office, thinking about life, I started  to decide to get involve in charity and volunteering activities, especially for humanity and for the needy.I did sign up for some volunteering causes but if I was unable to attend myself, I will prefer to just donating some amount of money.

I was always thinking what is the main purpose I'm living everyday.
Then I choose to answer my question back, as simple as I can;
First, because God don't want me to die yet. There's a plenty of oxygen all around me for me to breath and living.

Second to realise that, life is real. No matter how life's gonna treat me, I have to continue living, either I was ready or not.

Third, I live in order for my own pleasure. And to realize that not everything is possible in this world. Sometimes it might going to be happen but not as soon as possible... but someday. Like, I was thinking of driving a Maserati today but I can't get it tomorrow or next week but maybe 20 years later I will. Kidding. I don't want to invest money for luxury car. :D

And the last one, I was living in order to learn on how to be grateful. To start appreciating every blessings I have, big or small. I might not well established, but I have to be grateful that God sent a good man for me to support me.

After my family, I always wish that somehow I can contribute to the world. For the needy people. For humanity. Then I decided to start donating for charity and for church at least one in a month. ^_^
My next life goal is to share what I have with those who need it. At least I did something good for myself and for those who need it.

I decided to give not because I am rich.
But because I knew how does it feel, when you have nothing.

God bless,
Diana Erika