Thinking About My Uncertain Future

I started to trust Alvin Tan's ideology about migrating. Never make money as an issue to start the plan. He was right that I am just lazy. Lazy to think and to start a life. There's a lot of my friends who were working abroad and still live gracefully. I am just afraid and lazy,indeed. In 3 years I hope, I will be at another country for the life I always wanted. 3 years to find some courages and to properly planning about things I shall do. Alvin is an example of illegal migrate that can survive and having a happy life till days. And Tuan Pham and Kubota san were another examples of Asian who used to live and studying in USA and yet became successful person in life. If you have a dream to change, then go on. Especially when you don't want to stuck in the same life and story forever. God bless me then.

When you fall in love again

Next time when you fall in love again,

find a man who never change the way he treated you since the first day he tried to get to be close with you. Because that was what made you fall in love with him.

And that was the thing that you will get used and when he stop doing that to you, you will feel some kind of emptiness, more to insecure. 

Next time when you fall in love again, find a man who tell you he loves you every single day and make sure he meant it. :) Because sometimes, he never can love you 100% even when you devoted all your life and your dignity for him. Sometimes you gonna lose yourself. He will make you feel insecure but never thought about it. You will be the only one who struggling too much because you are afraid he will change his feeling, sooner or later. 

Next time when you fall in love again, find a man who loves you more than you love him. Because you will suffer a lot, thinking and worrying about losing him, while in fact, you are the option. :) 

Nobody said It was easy

Because sometimes you can't force things to happen based on what you want.

Sometimes you just gotta follow the flow. 

In the end, you will realize, nothing last forever. 

If somebody thought that it is okay to Giving up on you, never force them to try one more time.

Because it will never be the same. 

You just gotta accept it. 

And letting go things. 

What If I don't be someone the society told me to be?

What if I choose the wrong path in my life?

When I was younger, I live within a society in which people will decide on how to mould someone to be a perfect human being.
You have to be educated, have moral value, doing good deeds, going to Church and admitting your sin, marrying a loyal man, have kids and live together with your spouse till the day death separate both of you away.

I did follow 80% of the 'perfect life' rules but then I get bored.
Following the man-made rules didn't make me a happy person. Like seriously.
I feel happy when doing things that against the law. But I never killed people. :)

I have too many perception about life and how to live. People told me to have secured job, saving money for the old day. Instead, I save money for the rainy day.

People will tell me, I will be regretting my life because I choose freedom than happiness.
But nobody ask me what is the definition of happiness for me.

When I told them, "I don't believe I will stuck in this kind of life forever," they laughed.
" I believe that one day I will leave this place and continue living my live somewhere else based on my own rule about how to live,"
They told me I will do a big mistake and will regret.

Do you really think so?

If I choose the wrong path and live miserably. Do you think I will regret? Not really. Nothing last forever. Someday it will gone. Someday I will die. 
Someday I will die. 

Regards,
Diana