I moved to another house....

And so,
After a hectic week, I moved to another place at Tabuan Jaya area, about 1.7km from my workplace. :D

I arrived here since last night.:)

Now, I have a little space of my own. Hehehehe.
This place is nice. I feel like home. I can cook,can do laundry and so on. I am no longer need to wait for my turn to take shower since my bedroom have attached shower. There is also park just opposite the house. I am very excited since I am on my way to reduce my weight.
I will start planning time to exercise.


And in order to reduce cost, I also cooks here.I will buy groceries soon after I get my car. :D
I can choose what I want to eat. The easiest menu shall be vegetables. And fish maybe. Hehehehe.


I will try my best to adapt myself in this place.:D

New Working Experiences.

Today is the 3rd Official day I am working,

Our office in Kuching had already officially opened on 17th of October 2015.

New working experiences,new peoples and new company. I already pray hard before that everything will turn out better, when I am here. :)

However, things are not meant to be as smooth as I thought. :(
I have to face someone who keep on downgrading me and think that I can't do anything.


I'm trying my best to deal nicely with him.
I'm trying to not be over sensitive and try to assume that this is just a trial for me. :)

Hopefully, things will get better soon.

God bless me.

The struggle is real

So many times I had to remind myself to keep calm and to keep on going on with my life.
I hate dealing with life issues. But now I have to and I have nobody here to help me.
I have to do everything on my own.

Second day in new place, I just spent my time looking for place to rent. I am not really comfortable in my current place due to privacy issues. I choose to move to another place next month.
Sometimes when I re-think about my life, I feel like I am working just to finish back my money on paying bills.

I feel stupid.
I  don't know If I am happy or not here.

If I am not happy, I'll move on,

Everything that make me feel uneasy, I will just leave it. Life is too short to keep on doing things I don't like.

Either it is a work life or Love issue, I decided to just leave it and move on if I continuously being unhappy with it. Try me. 

Auld Lang Syne....

The time is near for me to bid adieu.
I got mixed feelings but I know, no matter what, I have to face it.

This is just a process for me to grow. And to learn how to live and survive. Everything happened for reason. And I hope this time, it is for good.

People always told me, improve yourself before I'm old. I am always worrying that I will not do something beneficial for myself.

I get nervous going into that new place.
What should I do in the beginning? How to impress my new employer? Can I do the task given?

I am worrying too much.
I just hope that everything will be fine in the end.

God bless me for my next journey.

xoxo,
Diana

The Last Goodbye.

I saw the light fade from the sky
On the wind I heard a sigh
As the snowflakes cover
My fallen brothers
I will say this last goodbye

Night is now falling
So ends this day
The road is now calling
And I must away

Over hill and under tree
Through lands where never light
has shone
By silver streams that
run down to the sea

Under cloud, beneath the stars
Over snow and winter's morn
I turn at last to paths that lead home

And though where the road then takes me,
I cannot tell
We came all this way
But now comes the day
To bid you farewell

Many places I have been
Many sorrows I have seen
But I don't regret
Nor will I forget
All who took that road with me

Night is now falling
So ends this day
The road is now calling
And I must away

Over hill, and under tree
Through lands where
never light has shone
By silver streams that
run down to the sea

To these memories I will hold
With your blessing I will go
To turn at last to paths that lead home

And though where the road then takes me,
I cannot tell
We came all this way
But now comes the day
To bid you farewell

I bid you all a very fond farewell

Only Me and You.

I just had a dream that you were far away
And that someone else was in your arms today
Though I know it's just a dream
Still my fear is so extreme
Cause I know that dreams could sometimes be so true
And I'll be blue....

Then I told myself
That I will stay the same
Even if you hurt me, I will take the blame
You are all I'm livin for
I would love you even more
I would keep the pain inside my door

It's enough for me that I have come to love you, I see
Because the heart I have could only want you
I just want you to remember
Even if it takes forever

I would wait until the world is through
When all that's left is
Only me and you

Yes I told myself I'd always stay the same
Even if you hurt me
I would take the pain
You are all I'm livin for
I would love you even more
I would keep the pain inside my door

I'll wait for you
You know it's true
Until I can now be with you
When all that's left
Is only me and you

Counting the Days

Last week, on 24th of September, I had tendered my resignation letter to my current company since I got another job offer from another places. :D

It's been 2 years I've been working in this current company and this project. And within 2 years, many things happened. Unexpectedly.
People always tell me, just go on with the flow. Let's thing happened on you, Appreciate every moment you're still breathing.

I can say that within 2 years, I have met many people that change my perception about life. Those who always told me to not giving up. And those who told me enjoy my younger life because I'll regret it when I am older. Those who taught me that doing things against the human nature were just fine. 2 years and I am no longer myself that I used to know when I was 23.

I fell in love. I get hurt. But I still hold on because sometimes, heartache is even worth than losing the love you always wanted for your life.

I am counting the day I'm leaving soon.
I don't understand what happened but... I feel like leaving is a big burden for me to handle right now. :(
It's not about I am afraid of what's going next. But I am afraid being parted. Being parted from the people that I love. I cannot bear the feeling of being lonely.
I know everything happened for reasons. But at least, I am wishing I know the reasons.

I am trying to comfort myself that I will be ok. We will meet always. Never stop keeping in touch.
But still, I cannot help myself from crying, whenever I was thinking about being parted.

God....
I just hope I knew the reasons.