The Last Goodbye.

I saw the light fade from the sky
On the wind I heard a sigh
As the snowflakes cover
My fallen brothers
I will say this last goodbye

Night is now falling
So ends this day
The road is now calling
And I must away

Over hill and under tree
Through lands where never light
has shone
By silver streams that
run down to the sea

Under cloud, beneath the stars
Over snow and winter's morn
I turn at last to paths that lead home

And though where the road then takes me,
I cannot tell
We came all this way
But now comes the day
To bid you farewell

Many places I have been
Many sorrows I have seen
But I don't regret
Nor will I forget
All who took that road with me

Night is now falling
So ends this day
The road is now calling
And I must away

Over hill, and under tree
Through lands where
never light has shone
By silver streams that
run down to the sea

To these memories I will hold
With your blessing I will go
To turn at last to paths that lead home

And though where the road then takes me,
I cannot tell
We came all this way
But now comes the day
To bid you farewell

I bid you all a very fond farewell

Only Me and You.

I just had a dream that you were far away
And that someone else was in your arms today
Though I know it's just a dream
Still my fear is so extreme
Cause I know that dreams could sometimes be so true
And I'll be blue....

Then I told myself
That I will stay the same
Even if you hurt me, I will take the blame
You are all I'm livin for
I would love you even more
I would keep the pain inside my door

It's enough for me that I have come to love you, I see
Because the heart I have could only want you
I just want you to remember
Even if it takes forever

I would wait until the world is through
When all that's left is
Only me and you

Yes I told myself I'd always stay the same
Even if you hurt me
I would take the pain
You are all I'm livin for
I would love you even more
I would keep the pain inside my door

I'll wait for you
You know it's true
Until I can now be with you
When all that's left
Is only me and you

Counting the Days

Last week, on 24th of September, I had tendered my resignation letter to my current company since I got another job offer from another places. :D

It's been 2 years I've been working in this current company and this project. And within 2 years, many things happened. Unexpectedly.
People always tell me, just go on with the flow. Let's thing happened on you, Appreciate every moment you're still breathing.

I can say that within 2 years, I have met many people that change my perception about life. Those who always told me to not giving up. And those who told me enjoy my younger life because I'll regret it when I am older. Those who taught me that doing things against the human nature were just fine. 2 years and I am no longer myself that I used to know when I was 23.

I fell in love. I get hurt. But I still hold on because sometimes, heartache is even worth than losing the love you always wanted for your life.

I am counting the day I'm leaving soon.
I don't understand what happened but... I feel like leaving is a big burden for me to handle right now. :(
It's not about I am afraid of what's going next. But I am afraid being parted. Being parted from the people that I love. I cannot bear the feeling of being lonely.
I know everything happened for reasons. But at least, I am wishing I know the reasons.

I am trying to comfort myself that I will be ok. We will meet always. Never stop keeping in touch.
But still, I cannot help myself from crying, whenever I was thinking about being parted.

God....
I just hope I knew the reasons.

Thinking About My Uncertain Future

I started to trust Alvin Tan's ideology about migrating. Never make money as an issue to start the plan. He was right that I am just lazy. Lazy to think and to start a life. There's a lot of my friends who were working abroad and still live gracefully. I am just afraid and lazy,indeed. In 3 years I hope, I will be at another country for the life I always wanted. 3 years to find some courages and to properly planning about things I shall do. Alvin is an example of illegal migrate that can survive and having a happy life till days. And Tuan Pham and Kubota san were another examples of Asian who used to live and studying in USA and yet became successful person in life. If you have a dream to change, then go on. Especially when you don't want to stuck in the same life and story forever. God bless me then.

When you fall in love again

Next time when you fall in love again,

find a man who never change the way he treated you since the first day he tried to get to be close with you. Because that was what made you fall in love with him.

And that was the thing that you will get used and when he stop doing that to you, you will feel some kind of emptiness, more to insecure. 

Next time when you fall in love again, find a man who tell you he loves you every single day and make sure he meant it. :) Because sometimes, he never can love you 100% even when you devoted all your life and your dignity for him. Sometimes you gonna lose yourself. He will make you feel insecure but never thought about it. You will be the only one who struggling too much because you are afraid he will change his feeling, sooner or later. 

Next time when you fall in love again, find a man who loves you more than you love him. Because you will suffer a lot, thinking and worrying about losing him, while in fact, you are the option. :) 

Nobody said It was easy

Because sometimes you can't force things to happen based on what you want.

Sometimes you just gotta follow the flow. 

In the end, you will realize, nothing last forever. 

If somebody thought that it is okay to Giving up on you, never force them to try one more time.

Because it will never be the same. 

You just gotta accept it. 

And letting go things. 

What If I don't be someone the society told me to be?

What if I choose the wrong path in my life?

When I was younger, I live within a society in which people will decide on how to mould someone to be a perfect human being.
You have to be educated, have moral value, doing good deeds, going to Church and admitting your sin, marrying a loyal man, have kids and live together with your spouse till the day death separate both of you away.

I did follow 80% of the 'perfect life' rules but then I get bored.
Following the man-made rules didn't make me a happy person. Like seriously.
I feel happy when doing things that against the law. But I never killed people. :)

I have too many perception about life and how to live. People told me to have secured job, saving money for the old day. Instead, I save money for the rainy day.

People will tell me, I will be regretting my life because I choose freedom than happiness.
But nobody ask me what is the definition of happiness for me.

When I told them, "I don't believe I will stuck in this kind of life forever," they laughed.
" I believe that one day I will leave this place and continue living my live somewhere else based on my own rule about how to live,"
They told me I will do a big mistake and will regret.

Do you really think so?

If I choose the wrong path and live miserably. Do you think I will regret? Not really. Nothing last forever. Someday it will gone. Someday I will die. 
Someday I will die. 

Regards,
Diana